Am I The Only One!

   In a world that often seems to be designed for social butterflies, it’s pretty much unusual to feel like an odd among them. As a Lone Wolf, there have been countless moments when I have asked myself, "Am I the only one?"

    I often feel that the rush and fuss of daily life conflict with my desire for quiet times and deeper conversations with none but myself. I have seen a quote (can’t recall where at the moment), in which I highly agree with. It says, "Wise men speak because they have something to say, Fools because they have to say something." I don’t know why but I find a special kind of peace in moments spent alone. I always crave meaningful conversations beyond the superficial, where I can explore ideas, emotions, and dreams.

    The thing is, I love my alone time, but I also appreciate the joy of connecting with others. But truth be told, I prefer smaller and more intimate gatherings where I can be myself. Well, it's like my desired world is like a canvas of my imagination, where I draw, and write whatever I feel, think, and wonder. Someone said, "You see things. You keep quiet about them and you understand". For being like this, I think I can listen to others. I always listen not just to hear, but to understand. Because I love to observe people rather than put my judgments on them, I try my best to listen to others but I can’t share or express my feelings when it comes to mine. But it’s not always the same, sometimes I find some people who share the same thoughts as mine. Susan Gale said, "Sometimes quiet people do have a lot to say… they are just being careful about who they open up to.", and it actually suits me well.

    And this is where I feel like I don’t belong here. Because it seems to me that the world often celebrates those who are frank and always present in the spotlight. There are times when I feel pressured to conform, to be more optical and vocal. But I feel like I'm losing a piece of myself every time I try to fit into that mold.

    I think that everyone has their unique way of navigating the world, and there’s no right or wrong way to be. Audrey Hepburn said, "Living is like tearing through a museum. Not until later do you start absorbing what you saw, thinking about it, looking it up in a book, and remembering because you can’t take it in all at once."

    For anyone who feels similarly, wondering if they are the only one who prefers peace over chaos, know that you are not alone. Many of us find beauty in calmness. We all should embrace our unique way of thinking and experiencing the world differently. After all, the world needs all kinds of voices to create a symphony.